Close your eyes.
Tip your head back.
Extend both arms out as far as your tips can reach.
Now fall backwards and allow the concrete to initiate contact.
And instead of opening your eyes only to watch yourself cradle
your wound, keep them closed and take note the warmth pooling from the
back of your skull.
Breath in deep this time, and keep your arms extended. Admit to yourself
that what you are feeling is utter exhaustion, debilitating trauma, and one hell of a blow.
As you are now submerging yourself in wallow and self pity, remorse.
Ask to be granted with serenity
and pray for forgiveness.
Lay still.
Keep your eyes closed, but this time squeeze your eyelids tightly shut.
Allow for your jaw to open widely as if to scream for help,
but make not a sound.
Stop breathing as you do this.
Keep holding onto that last breath.
Exhale slowly, mouth wide open, lids tightly shut.
As your brain alerts you to breath in, now: hesitate for a moment.
Take note on how your body is in a tormented pose, your lungs are pursed for oxygen, and your heart is coming to a crawl.
And notice how you are alone.
Notice that no one stopped you from falling.
Notice how there is not one person licking your wounds.
And take note how nobody is breathing life into your lungs.
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